10 things I’m thankful for

Allye asked me the other night to write a post about ten things I’m thankful for so I’m going to. I love doing stuff like this and now seems like a good time to.

1. The Lord’s faithfulness and love for me. I am so thankful I can rest in him no matter what happens. He loves me and will always always always be faithful. I love him so much! Psalms 71:5- For you have been my hope, O Sovereign Lord, my confidence since my youth.

2. All of my roommates and my mom. They have taken care of me this past week as I’ve pitifully laid on the couch each day. From bringing me a trash can when I need it, a sonic drink to cheer me up, and always asking if I need anything- they are all amazing! My mom even came up for a night and cleaned things and bought me food. I am so blessed!

3. My job. Thankfully, although I didn’t go to work all week- I still will get paid for most of last week. Thanks to having a real job with real sick days! I will still be able to make my car payment and my rent- and pay for anything I need. Thank you Lord for a good full-time job!

4. The Lord’s word (my bible). It has brought me so much hope and peace during this season. I can’t even begin to express how grateful I am to be able to pick up my bible whenever I need to and find whatever words I need to hear to carry me through.

5.  Veteran’s Day. I am thankful for Veterans and their service to our country. Also, for them having their own day because I get the day off to celebrate them! Celebrate I will!

6. Health insurance. I’m going back to the doctor tomorrow because I’m still not better. I’m thankful because I have health insurance I don’t have to stress about going to the doctor again- and hopefully paying for some prescription meds.

7. More mature, wiser, godly people the Lord has placed in my life. I’m so thankful they are there especially during this season. Their love, support and prayers are such a blessing.

8. Change. As hard and painful as it can be for me, I know it is so good. Change allows room for new opportunities, growth and better things. The actual change isn’t so awesome but what follows I trust is worth it! Romans 8:28- And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

9. Hope.  Psalms 71:14-15  But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more. My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure.

10.  Brokenness. Hosea 2:14-15 “Therefore I am no going to allure her, I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth… in that day, declares the Lord, you will call me ‘my husband’ “.

I hope my posts aren’t super depressing right now. I don’t mean for them to be. I hope the hope and love I have in Christ amidst the trials and brokenness shines brighter. He is so good.

BTW, you should probably make a list of 10 things you’re thankful for too!

XOXOXO

Just like a star cross my sky

Expectations. I’ve been thinking about these and what mine are. I put expectations on everything. I have expectations for how my life should go. I have expectations for how people should treat me. I’ve been wondering whats the difference between expectations and standards. I think expectations set standards and that isn’t always bad. I mean- I think it isn’t bad for us to defend ourselves and push ourselves to be better through our standards. This is where it gets blurry for me though. See- I expect to be generally happy in life, so if I’m not- I look for ways to change what I’m doing to become happier. Not a bad thing, right? But- my standard for my life is happiness. Something in me says wait a second, can I really set that standard for my life? Can I really expect that? Christ doesn’t promise me happiness every day of my life. He promises joy in Him- but not happiness.

I keep realizing all these different expectations and standards I’ve put on my life. Its no wonder why I am discontented. How interesting it is to have the Lord pull at the roots of you. Here are some things I can expect:

Christ will always work for my good according to what He has called me to.

God will never leave or forsake me.

He is faithful, always and forever.

God is always good.

It is for freedom he set us free.

I’m going to work on freeing myself of my expectations and lining them up with Christ’s promises.

On a less serious note- if a doctor tells you you’re just going to have to “ride out” the flu with no prescription meds, go ahead and punch him in the face right then. You may not feel the need to at the moment but when you’re still knocked out on the couch 3 days later, you’ll be glad you did.

(please forgive me for the last paragraph, Lord and readers. I blame it on all the tv i’ve watched this week)

XOXO

His love is real, its not just a sign or a sacrement

This week has been so weird. I feel like its a strange dream. I think I’ve expressed every emotion possible in the past few days. I hope life stops feeling so surreal soon. I don’t like this.

I decided today I’m going to switch positions at my job. I’m nervous and excited. I’m going to miss working with some of my clients. I’m afraid I won’t like this job either though. Trusting Him.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my calling lately. I have no idea what the big picture “calling” is on my life. I wish I did. But I’m becoming okay with not knowing. I think Christ is always calling us to something. Sometimes- as I’m finding, its a lot simpler than we think. I like that too. I need simple in my life right now. I don’t think I could take anything complex and I know God understands that about me. He’s so good. I hope you know that. I don’t always trust that He is but He is. Anyways, my good God is calling me to rest in Him and wait on Him. How I know this? I don’t know. What I do know is I was really praying and thinking about what I feel called to right now and thats all I could think about. How sweet is it to realize the love of the Father? He knows what I need and calls me to it. The Lord knows this is not an easy call for me either- regardless of how simple it is. But I know my God is a God who provides and I’m proclaiming his truths in the face of my trials. With Him as my refuge and fortress, I will not be shaken. What a beautiful savior.  I love him so much.

There’s so much going on in my head lately. Its spilling out everywhere and I can’t help it. So, enjoy the surplus of posts for a little while. k, i’m going.

XOXO